A LIFE THAT NEVER WAS....

A crowd of famous people cheering, proud and a happy family, sweet and cuddly siblings and a peaceful life of luxury and freedom. A pipe dream of my unprogresable life, a goal that cannot be attained by just a simple individual like me, a bubble which vanished every second, a life that have never was.

I was a prisoner of my own mistakes, suffering from the circumstances life had given to me; I'm craving for love, dignity and freedom, i wanted to be free... free from the shackles surrounding my dirty shaking hands. I once dreamed of a life of pure peace, a life far from the claws of imprisonment, far from the eyes of watchful humans trying to tear up my veins...

A life that can satisfy my hungry wretched soul. For some time, I felt comfort...comfort from teh dark ghostly room of the tower. Then I went back to my dream.. my pipe dream my parents.

I remembered having several kids and I the oldest and the matured one was there taking care of them, while giving my family honor. It calmed my soul.... It calmed my whole body down. I had all the riches on earth even the happiest life a man can ever possess...but that was just a time, once-upon a life story.

I was the opposite of that life, of that person... I have parents whom despised having me as their child, siblings whom tear my weak heart to pieces until it drowned itself in pure blood, a dumb brain and a low ethic individual who even brought neither honor nor happiness to the family. I was an outcast...until now in the time of my death.

I was scared when I heard the creaking of the rusty door, the light that entered hit my eye, two cape man went in and took my weak body out of the cold room. I opened my eyes and saw a bunch of people gatehred around the place. I saw them.. I saw my parents .. I saw my family...

They were crying.. i know they're crying for me... I though I'm the loneliest one in here but I'm not.. I'm not...

As one of the cape man covered my face with a cloth and as he placed the rope on my nape. I came to realize they love me despite of being too juvenile still they cared for me. As the guy swing his a silver on my neck, I lost my life. I felt my soul floating in the breezy air, I glanced at my lifeless body and grinned, a smile of dream satisfaction and happiness...it wasn't a thinking...it wasn't a pipe dream at all..life less body..l need to mingle with death.

My life goes like this...........

I born nothing in this frenzied world, only my flesh blood around my body....crying when the doctor make a "pak" to my butt... a cry of a baby which made my mother happy..especially when she touched the new born baby girl.

In her time, her mother caressed her with her soft kissed, comforted her with her love and make her secured in her arms...until her childhood life.

She began her life when she already knows the right and wrong ...become grown up and survive the hardship life .... being a typical woman...she not needed anything else... only simple life which she wanted, a happy and loving family she dreamed to be.. to be rich in love and spiritually mature as her goal.

Desiderata

-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s --
Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

It's all about my grammar...

It’s a long time that I didn't visit my blog…I decided to end this kind of stuff since I feel that I am one of those who are trying hard to write some articles in this site…I am not good in English something that I feel disgusting about it..I am too old to learn how to use the correct usage of grammar which sometimes my boss corrected my work…hmmmmm….I’m still lucky because my boss is not too strict instead he continued to correct my grammar..he adviced me to enroll again in my English 1 …(hehehehe)..in a nice way. But I replied him that my brain is already drained …an old woman like me has no chance to refresh any topic to listen from the professor, I think my professor will get irritated if I am his/her student…heheheh…

Well, it seems that my friend Lainy encouraged me to continue my blogging and advice me that writing any topics in my own blog sites might help me to enhance my English problem, through this my boss will be happy if he observe if there was a little bit improvement in my grammar...char...

So, now I decided to cope my time and help myself to progress in this kind of stuff…I wish to myself that I can do it well, and change my life by blogging…hmmm….I hope that my visitors will enjoy to read some of my articles that I soon to write in my page…any comments and suggestions are welcome….now I decided to start one step of my dream in this kind of world…God bless you all…

Family Day..

Three days ago we celebrated the family day held at Rajah Beach Resor, located at Barangay Tambler, General Santos City, Philippinest...we called it family day activity for all employer and employees in different department of Local Government Unit, in this city. Our very own Mayor Pedro B. Acharon, Jr. participate the said event by playing volleyball together with the heads of different Departments. We also enjoyed watching the two parlor games of which any participants are from different department. They also distributed special prizes to those who won from the parlor games they held and for creative cottage.

The purpose of this activity is to elevate a good connection to every fellow servants of this city. And help us to create a harmonious and peaceful relationship between the employer and employees.

Well, the activities fulfilled a joyful smile and laugh and you can see it with the following pictures…

Wow....you can see how happy they are?

Another one please!!

Hey!! GingGing, are you okay!!

Aha!! thats what you need..to make a good pose!

Hey Kenken!! what office are you working..

Whaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh....I don't like to dance...

Okey...maybe Balong will dance with me....

Aem!! no one will get you...

Hmmm....you want sample?

Wow....the newly couple....how sweet..inggit si kuya roy...heheheh

The Voyage of my Life.

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived. But it is our path to become more aware in every struggle of our life. It is how we driven our life not by chances but through our choices. My destiny is not your destiny, but I believe that we have the same experiences but different circumtances.

I have scuffled many nights as days for my life, i became a prisoner from my fear, which delivered me in a pathetic situation. A fear that I suffered for a long time from the hand of an unrighteous one. Sufferings, pains, failures, troubles and mornings in his hand, but through this event, the way of my life changed in the year's course, and this is the new beginning of my life.

I became more aware of my life, my task is to love myself before anything else, promise myself not to suffer a burden because of somebody else, to exhibit self meditation for me to know how close I am with myself. But since, I am in the middle of my voyage, I needed strength from the strong wind that I had faced in the middle of the blue dark water of the roaring ocean waves and I need to train myself in every drastic storm which will try to engulf my unbeatable life.

This unexpected events are adversities which could no longer be notice. Where we have to go...a decision that we need to make... and think what is desirable, but, before we decide, we need to listen to our heart, mind, body and soul. It should be necessary to coordinate with them to be more effective and efficient in all aspects of our life.


Now, I found out that a happy life wouldn't be complete without a littles spies of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it weren't balanced with sadness. Happiness can neither be seen nor felt only in luxurious , popularity and power but by being typical.

Above all, God is very important and in control of things spiritually, mentally and physically in short (SMP). Wherein, love is very important.. that love is the fulfilling law of God..and all of this is part of my Voyage.

What a day!

Monday is the first working day of the week. It's my daily routine to get up from my bed at 5:00 o’clock in the morning to have a voice chat to my dearly man for an hour before I prepare myself to go to my office.

Every Monday we attended the flag ceremony held in front of our new City Hall for 30 minutes. A typical day which I did not expected a news from my ex-hubby informing me that his oldest brother passed away at 3:00 o clock in the morning, I sent him a sympathy message in behalf of my family. Then, I started my work when I heard somebody discussing with a load voice, I looked to check what’s happening inside my officemate area, Michael and Ruel thrash out in front of our clients which is not good to see, so we asked them to go inside the office of our boss to continue talking and advice them to talk in a nice way..but to our surprised they acted to strike each other..me and ellaine calmed them down and I took Michael outside to stop the fight. So then, the two boys went back to their respective area and continued their work.

But then, I wasn’t able to concentrate on my work and it cause some error while typing a documents. And when my boss already around, I ask him to correct the document and he corrected it 4 times with the same mistakes (hu!hu!hu!) but at last, I did it!.

In the afternoon, I talked to my boss what happened to Michael and Ruel, he asked me to call them, for some reason, my boss advised them not to do it again, if they heard something that make them hurt just approach it in a nice way, to avoid quarrel. Anyway, they finished it by shaking their hands and saying sorry to each other.

At last, I ended my Monday with a gigantic grin when I went home and play our adopted baby together with my daughter.